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Jul. 19th, 2013

Deep thinkin

The Flow of Time

Being alone has got its perks now and then. You get your space, your freedom, your little bubble of peace in this chaotic world and there was once a time where i relished this little bubble of mine. but life as I have come to observe, has its own way of leading people from dreams to reality.

To realize a professional dream, many a nights have been wasted and many dreams and aspirations crushed. In some cases, even relationship took its toll. Yet, in the end.. you end up in a boring monotonous life. I could say,

'The Journey is most exciting to the destination that which is most boring'

A random thought that makes me think again.

I just wish life was simpler, we had our share of fun, had a target set to do, not think of problems surrounding you. Just have this little bubble of peace. I have seen considerable changes within me, which makes me shudder and sad.
What happened to the me who listened and hummed Backstreet Boys, loved Popsicle and had this little beeping digital Casio watches. Life was so much simpler and I sound like a genuine old man now.

Life has lost its glamour because I gained the maturity to see and expect what life has to offer. If I want to break free of what i see and expect, I would be hurting the great expectations of Parents and relatives alike. Bound by my own self, It is depressing. Yet, I let the little kid in me to wait a little longer, then I shall let him free and have the fair share of fun that is due.

The Hope and despair that men have that guides them truly is a miracle in itself! :)

Dec. 28th, 2011


Back!? Or is it?

A little sometime back.. Roughly 5 years back, was my last update on the site. Thanks to Chinese anti blogging rules, I was denied access to this blog. Now that i am back... Its time to Restart! :D

Posted via m.livejournal.com.

Mar. 1st, 2007


Funny Memory

The Crazy 3

This was a little example of how well a brain work and the power of imagination. we came up with this dance in under 2 min. just got a break from the chemistry lecture, we went to the wash room and danced ....was funny. since i was sitting on the basin area n shot the whole thing. it was not comfy but it sure was fun!

Feb. 28th, 2007


Why Life is More Cool Without A Girlfriend

Reasons why LIFE without a Girl Friend is cool

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1. You can stare at any Girl.......

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2. You don't have to spend money on her.

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3. You won't get boring result in ur board papers.

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4. No girlfriend, no emotional blackmailing.

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5. If u don't have a girlfriend, she can't dump u.

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6. Having a girlfriend is hot, not having a girlfriend is automatically cool, and every one loves to be a cool guy.

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7. This can be more to life than just waiting for the bloody phone to ring.

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8. You won't have to tolerate someone else defining, "right " and "wrong" for u.

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9. Girlfriend can get so possessive that you can't do anything according ur wishes anymore.

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10. You can buy gifts for mom, dad, sis or grandpa instead of a girlfriend and have a happier family life.

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11. You won't have to waste paper writing love letters. No more endless waiting for ur date to arrive at some weird shop place.

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12. You can have more friends, as u will have more time for them.

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13. You wont have to see boring love stories instead of sports.

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14. You wont have to tell lie to anybody and, therefore, u'll sin less.

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15. You can have good night's sleep-no need to dream about her.

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16. You wont have to fight over having a 'special' friend with ur folks.

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17. No nonstop nonsense.

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18. You wont have drown in the pool of her tears.

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19. No tension.

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20. You can be "urself"

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21. You wont have to hide your telephone bills.....

I guess this makes life a little more happy and durable than those suffering from these symptoms!

Feb. 26th, 2007


At 41,000 ft

Writing this at 41,000 ft makes this my special work. High above the skies watching the city lights from the vantage point of gods! It is thrilling to look down at the huge cities move. It makes me wonder, is this how God sees his people? It is like looking at specks of sand in the vast desert. Imagining people work, laugh, smile, cry and live at the same time does mimic the eye of god.

It is amazing, watching the wind move by and you really are lighter than the wind. Specks of sand that is what we are in this huge wide world. Sitting in the midst of different kinds of people is special. Riyadh, Nairobi, Jakarta, New York, London, New Delhi, Moscow and every place 1 can imagine. One can see a treasure of culture walking by and no one would even realise.

Now it is good morning from 41,000 ft. seeing the sun grow larger in front makes me sure that I am indeed going to the Far East. The view of the sea is breath taking. The world just keeps getting smaller and smaller. It is odd where I stand now, friends or family.

Even thinking of arriving at a new destination, meeting old friends and being thrust back in the old life. It is odd, but I wanted to run away for once. But I felt that all happiness and sadness that I went through in life, just made me a little stronger and it was a stupid move to run away from it!

So best I do is face the fears and do whatever I can when I have to do it.

Feb. 19th, 2007

Deep thinkin

Shopping Without Mom

Today was the first day without mom here. I was a little uncertain how to stay with my dad who always demanded a lot from me. It was odd and I slept late at night. Sneaked online, chatted with S for a long time, and had fun!

When I finally woke up at 11am, I got a call from dad and he wanted me to accompany him to his office. I was a little worried about this. As offices are a little boring and meeting new people that I do not share interests with always gets on my nerves. Eventually, I had to leave just to make dad happy!

Office turned out to be less boring than expected. I got a naughty copier machine that haunted and bugged my dad’s co-workers a lot. I tinkered around with it for quite sometime and got my work done without any complications. However, I questioned about china and medicine .Loads of people came and chatted with me. I found out my dad was very popular and respected among his associates. I was glad, happy, and secretly proud too.

Well the day ended soon, we went to Carrefour, and I got a brand new 2 GB flask disk. I was happy and ecstatic about it. Came back home and had leftover dinner. Also was happy as the day I would be back with my friends was drawing nearer. However, I realise that seriousness is required from now on as I have a tough course to complete and failure is no more an option. Hope I succeed in retaining myself at the end of this course. Feels like its hard to stay the same all the time and time to change is finally at hand!

Feb. 18th, 2007



Today was the departure day of my mom back to India. It all started with packing moms bags a hundred times. It was all about checking the weight of the bags and its compliance to the baggage allowance allowed by the airlines. Mom was frustrated and I gave up and allowed mom to do, as she wanted.

Got mom to rest and cleaned up the entire home. Then, I went along to the airport to see her off. She was worried and anxious coz she was carrying excess baggage and did not want to pay exaggerating prices. Nevertheless, luckily, we got a good counter service employee and the baggage cleared without any problems. Mom was relieved and finally she left.

For the very first time she did not cry on leaving and I was glad my mom got stronger. On the way back, dad talked about his life, released his stresses, and calmed down. It was an odd silence when we entered our home, felt sad about how dad would feel when I leave. Well I am glad my mom and dad are strong and guess they have been through a lot, so it will not affect them much.

I felt a little angry on the only friend I know here in Saudi. She is a busy person and hardly calls. To begin with, I was looking forward to meeting her since we just connected after nearly 13 yrs of total black out and she was the first friend of mine and the first girl to be my friend. Now that she is a teacher, she is a hell lot busy! I never got a message or a call from her and that makes me angry and a little sad too.

Anyways that is life and I guess I am getting used to it! Still miss my friends and still am surviving!

Feb. 14th, 2007


Valentines And The Trip

Today is Valentines Day and I have no idea why people make such a big fuss over a single day! Stop westernization and stuff, it was funny to see the same people who say stop war say no to spreading love! It is ironic but true too.

Anyways back to my own life. Valentines Day was special coz it was my day to celebrate Independence Day! A friend sent me a mail saying if I was alone on Valentines Day I could always celebrate Independence Day and I am glad I got that mail!

Well today was a different kind of a day for me. I was out travelling to a far of holy city, a 3000-mile journey across the timeless sands of Arabia. It was fun and tiresome. It started with us missing the bus and catching it at the last stop. Then the 16hr journey through many of the gas stations and major cities. We finally arrived in Mecca at 10 am, 15th February, did our religious duties and then went shopping. More like mom took us to shopping against our consent. Then we left at 9pm and arrived in Medina at 2 am next day. We stayed there until 2 pm and started back home soon, and arrived after 14hrs.

The trip meant a lot to me; I found eternal peace and these places and found happiness no matter where I looked. Felt a lot closer to God and far from sadness, pain, stress and worry. In the midst of silence and prayers, the feeling of being cut off from the rest of the world felt odd.

In the end, I remembered all my friends and thanked God for giving me the honour to have amazing friends. I felt so close to God, felt like I was thanking Him personally. Thanks to one and all and I still cant thank enough.

Feb. 9th, 2007


Blame Game

Today was one boring all lecture day! The afternoon we spent with Salman uncle who is a doc in Saudi Aramco Clinics. It was a nice experience sans the entire lecture about education and seriousness. It got boring and he just kept on showing me the books of medicine, which were interesting.

I was very bored all the time and pissed off by this constant lecturing about the same topic. If I did study in front of them, my parents would just act extra cordial and nice with me, which is not very comfortable.

I could not help but notice the blame game the adults play! Its funny how they keep blaming me for mistakes they helped making. The best way to get work done is to get the attention of the person. They just murmur things and expect me to get it done in the next 10 min. I agree helping out is part of a duty for members of the family, but unfortunately God just gave me two hands to get my work done. In addition, I am a human so I do get tired too. However, these things hold no value when time is running out.

The worst part of this blame game is the no objection rule. If they blame you, then you are guilty of the crime committed. Guess, it is a simple way to let out the building frustrations of life in the adults and the best scapegoats are the kids themselves.

Perfection is something none can achieve, the only way one can be happy is to show happy and expected result, I am tired and guess tomorrow is another slave day as mom is going to call some relatives for dinner. Hence, that means I am off to the kitchen doing all the work I can until I pass out!

Feb. 8th, 2007



Its 3:14 am now and the previous day just zoomed by even before I could recall what happened. I realised that most adults lack the sense of humor which most of the youngsters enjoy exploiting! A simple joke might make them serious and not funny at all.

I do recall the time I gave a funny birthday card to my grandfather and that was not successful. All it said was what a person should do at his age! Therefore, it ended with enrolling themselves in an antique shop! I found it funny and thought my grandfather might find it funny too. Guess I was wrong at that! Grandfather was not happy and I had to get him another boring birthday card just to cool him down!

Well at the end of the day, some of mom’s friends invited us over. The party was fun and the kids were hilarious. I do love staying and playing with kids. It was a lovely and fun filled adventure kind of an experience! I do and always will miss them and finally I succeeded in befriending the new little girl Saba.

The best part of kids is the way they choose the person they want to trust. They check the person, go around and see how he smiles and it really is a funny to see them observe you with great interest. That is how that little girl Saba observed me. It took time but she finally sat in my lap and observed others. I did see them sing and dance and it was a wonderful evening with them.

With the adults, there was the same old discussion about stock markets, education and loads of other things of which I have no idea! It was boring but I some how survived it. Kids helped a lot, sneaking in between and calling me. I really am lucky to have such amazing friends and pray they remain the same.

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